Someone used this to describe me once. How I’m closed off, walled up. How getting in is so hard, how I keep myself safe by not letting anyone in. I don’t talk about me, dont allow myself to be vulnerable, don’t risk any of it.

(I also absolutely have let a handful of poeple in)

But really, isnt that standard? Makes sense to me at least. Why would you just let anyone close when they have hurt you so badly?