i actually have no clue why we picked such a stupid word. i mean, it’s not something we can draw, it’s not something easily photographed, and who the hell has associations with this word at all?! argh.
the image that does come to mind is windswept hair…has a somewhat romantic feel to it. apple-cheeked, tousled locks, tossed around by the wind, yet somehow still attractive. in other words, nothing like how i look lol.
whenever i anticipated things, i was usually anxious. even anticipating exciting things brought anxiety. so when i think of this word, it feels pins-and-needle-ish, fidgety, heart-quickening, stomach-dropping, slightly sick-ish.