Allowing (147)

I am not very allowing in terms of myself. Whilst I would allow other people to just try, give things a go, make mistakes, mess up, and that be okay, I don’t very often allow myself that same freedom.

I also don’t allow myself to cry, to be needy, to want, to be weak or upset. I don’t allow myself to just be however I am without hating myself for being that way. I judge myself massively, consider it weak, and disgust myself those times I can’t help it happening. Even though I would never feel like that about someone else.

One thought on “Allowing (147)

  1. It is the hardest to allow all of that. Especially when it was so unsafe let down the walls, to permit anything other than being okay and unfeeling. It would have destroyed us, sweet one. It nearly does now, when we’re grown up…

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