shittest of shits: 3/30

that is today.

i worked but i don’t even know how. i was somewhere else. i forgot to eat lunch. i drank water though.

my body feels terrible, my brain feels terrible, my head feels terrible. i’m small and ashamed and stuck there. it is hurting all over, inside and outside. i feel totally alone.

all i’ve felt like doing all day is crying, and now that i actually can, that i have a minute just for me, it won’t come.

i don’t think i have anything else to say.