Yeah, not today. I feel like a failure most of the time, and I don’t even know what to say about it. Maybe I’ll come back to it at some point…doubt it.
whenever i anticipated things, i was usually anxious. even anticipating exciting things brought anxiety. so when i think of this word, it feels pins-and-needle-ish, fidgety, heart-quickening, stomach-dropping, slightly sick-ish.